Hope

in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why, remember how… in time of daffodils – e.e. cummings

We are being tested. Many of us wonder what the world will look like and feel like once this is over. When we, once again, are allowed to sit with extended family or friends, who will sit around the table with us? For me, that thought is what dominates my thinking; and I doubt I am alone in that.

We try to carry on best we can in our day to day lives. While in the mist of this constant struggle, to stifle the fear and the uncertainty, we are reminded that there is beauty around us. We must find it. We must see it. We must take the time to appreciate it, breathe it in, enjoy it. Our hearts and souls are under siege. Not just by this plague but by the plague of this administration. How will we come through this?

It is easy to let fear and hate seep into our hearts. Gosh know’s I’m struggling with it everyday. At times it’s almost overwhelming, paralyzing. That is when I know I need to reach out. To friends, to family, to nature. It takes a concerted effort to not join those emotions and go down the rabbit hole they continue to invite me into. It’s dark there. It’s musty there. “Go back.” I hear the voice of my children to go back. To stay with us. To not succumb to the evil that is enveloping us.

Oddly I find myself thinking of a little girl who lived 80 odd years ago. I ordered her book, her diary which I’ve read many times. And to be honest I struggled each time to really understand. Now I’m turning to her to guide me through this darkness. To hold onto hope and the belief that people are good. To grab and embrace the light that offers itself to me.

…and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me – in time of daffodils – e.e. cummings

Reach out to those around you. Reach out to your family and friends and neighbors. Reach out to the essential workers who are keeping us alive. Stay safe. And never give up your efforts to shun the dark and live in the light.

Mary